2003-11-30 - 10:06 p.m.

Frankly, I don't know what's going on in my life right now. I keep feeling like just giving up on whatever I'm doing, sitting down where I stand and just not moving for a whole day or possibly the rest of my life. I'm confused about a lot of things involving various people I never seem to be able to get ahold of when I need them and I'm really worried about friends who seem practically to have disappeared. There are so many things going on I have no control over that the things I do have control over don't seem to matter.

I'm so tired.